Happy Birthday Baby!!

Kabrie Lynn turned 1 today! She was born January 11 2011 at 3:25 a.m. My wish for her today is that she grows up to be a wonderful girl, woman, wife and mother one day. That she never feels alone, that she knows her mother is always here for her. Her favorite lullaby...

Super Excited!

Totally excited for this weekend! Kabrie Lynn turns 1!! Not going to do a big party, just a few people. I don't think she needs one. She's still a baby and they still don't understand what their birthday really is, and wont even remember it. Got her a cake, going to get the ice cream the day of. Still trying to figure out what to make her for dinner. Something I don't make too often, but what? Maybe lasagna? I haven't made that in almost a year ( too much work, and way too little time ) Been feeling kind of sick though, like I can't sleep well because I can't get comfortable. Plus my tummy has been feeling kind of weird lately. I wonder if I got the stomach bug???? Hmm, I guess I'll just have Dr. Miner figure it out. Have an appointment with him for the 17th. Time for that yearly check up to make sure I'm still in working condition. Super excited to put her birthday pictures up. Talk to you then, but here's my new favorite song!!

(Sigh)

I found a bunch of Kiana and Kabrie's pictures that I hadn't seen in a while. I can't believe my babies are getting so big. Seems like only yesterday Kabrie was born and Kiana was only 3. Now Kiana is almost 5, Kabrie is almost 1. I'm just glad that I still have the option to have more kids in the future.

Kiana's Ultrasound

Kiana at Yaya's

She was so chubby!!

Such a pretty little girl....

Kiana and Mama.. 

Damn Push Pops!! lol

Her cute little goofy look

Spider Queen

She LOVES Hello Kitty

Girls with Santa

Kabrie and me, right after she was born

She is so freaking cute!!

She still takes my breath away

Sissies

Sleepy Sleepy

Pooping Face, after a long time of trying to get this shot I finally got it

Kitty Kitty

Now today is my last day of holiday vacation from school, go back tomorrow. I'm going to kind of miss being with my baby all day. I don't want to miss those important moments in her life. Especially sense right now I'm not working during the day and get to spend my time with my kids for now. 

Love my girls, love my life, love my family, love my friends, my instructors, myself, and last but not least I love my wonderful husband!!!

Wow, It's on Thursday!!

So it's only Thursday, and we go back to school on Tuesday. Thank God! I am so ready to go back and have 4 hours to just hang out with my friends ( and class of coarse ). Been a long week and I'm going crazy just sitting here at home, even if I have tons of things to do. Going to have a few friends over for New Years, just relaxing and have a bottle of Champagne. It'll be fun. Can't wait to have a good night with John and some friends. Stef of coarse and maybe Chet. We'll see if he can get off work early enough to make the drive from Vernal up here. My mom wants the kids for New Years, still wondering if I want them to be here with me or I want it just for John and me. Had a good night last night. No need to go into detail, I think you know what I mean. Woke up early this morning to make breakfast for everyone. John was still pretty tired from his sleeping medication so I took him breakfast in bed. It was surprising for him to wake up to breakfast on his nightstand.  I love being able to surprise him and make him happy. He does so much for me. He got me a coffee maker for Christmas, I had been eyeing one for a few months that I wanted. Now he sets the timer and has the coffee brewed and ready for me by the time I get out of bed. He is so good to me, helps me threw everything, especially when I need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to vent my frustrations on. He is good at that, just being there to listen to me. He never makes me feel dumb or like my feeling aren't valid. He tells me when I need to do something different or if I should keep being persistent. Funny how we had both felt like there wasn't anything called love, let alone true love. But now that we found each other we know there is true love, destiny, and fate. Our past marriages failed because they were supposed to fail, we stayed married as long as we did because that was our destiny. We were meant to meet when we did where we did for a reason. The stars knew we were meant to be together and the universe made it happen. He is an amazing father and husband. He finds my art amazing, as well as a few art galleries that have passed threw my drawings. My sense of fashion, I do know how to dress and do my hair and make up. He loves when I get ready and put on my tight jeans with a low cut shirt, 8 inch heels and make myself look pretty. After almost 5 months of marriage he still gets hot and bothered when I dress up for him, or kiss him on the neck, spank his butt, or just shake my stuff in front of him. No need to dress up in just a bra and panties and lay in bed to make him hot!! ( sorry if you think this is TMI but this is like my online journal ). It's funny how the girls at school are jealous when he treats me like a princess, the faculty see us as the IT couple, and the guys always ask him how someone like him got someone like me. They find it sweet when I take him dinner, or just go in to give him a kiss because I missed him. His instructor James is funny though. He see's me coming in the room, stops the lesson, and just starts talking to me, asking how I'm doing and why I'm in the class this time!! He'll come in to my class with Grant we will just start dirty conversations.. Sex life, dirty jokes, tips for the other girls to try with their guys. Plus it's funny to see this big girl who has a crush on John since the first day of school, look at us when we are together. She gets all sad. I feel bad, but honestly she put her sights way too high!! Like come on he was already with a loser once, like he wants to back track in his life. Come on, compare me to his ex's? Really? Really? So much better, honestly. I'm not a cocky bitch but I feel the need to just put that out there. He did an amazing job picking me as wife. It's like he won the Super Bowl, or even the Olympics. So anyway, enough of me going on about how amazing my life is with my husband. Things to remember from this blog...

1. Not being in school sucks
2. New Years is coming up
3. Christmas was amazing
4. John and I are so happy
5. Nooky is wonderful in this relationship
6. We are the IT couple in school
7. I find some people super funny
8. And John made an awesome decision when he picked me to be his wife
9. I made the greatest decision of my life when I said "yes"
10. Looking forward to another great year
11. And super exited for the next 20, 30, 40 or 50 more years
12. Ha, can't get this bitch's!! 

Need to Vent!!

So J and I had a little issue today. With both the girls being sick right now, I as a woman and mother decided to call my mother and ask her for some advise on what to give the girls. He got upset and compared me to his ex-wife. That she always called her mom for every little and and her moms advise was always shit. I am so not his ex... Hello, it's like comparing a Hyundai to a Mercedes. Not even a close comparison. Ergh!! It makes me so mad, he was lucky he was on the other side of the room or I would have knocked him out.. Oh well. Kiana is almost done with her bath, need to get her ready for bed. Talk later when I am more calmed!

Ugh!

Not feeling good today, or yesterday as a matter of fact. So I don't get to go to the Area 51 Nightmare Before Christmas Christmas party. I'm very upset about it... I was so looking forward to it. I still have 2 weeks before I go back to school.. I thought I would have at least some fun. But it's o.k. I'll get to play with the kids and spend more time with John. Stef might come over. I sure hope so.. At least then we can all still spend time together. I'm going to go do something productive. Later!

Christmas Vacation!

So my Christmas vacation has started. Last day of school was last night, all we had a a big potluck. Took some pictures, just good times in Provo High ( College ). It seriously feels like high school again. Feel like I'm getting a cold, but I have to try to make time to head to Fedex. I have to mail Audree's present. John isn't supposed to know where she lives or have her address so Connie has to go with me to put on the mailing info. Hmm. I've know some crazy ass moms in my day but when you refuse to let your child's father see her or let alone give her a Christmas gift your delusions and imagination run too wild. Honestly, what is he going to do, take her? And go where? To his moms? Really? I don't know I'm ranting and raving. I just feel for him that he can't see his daughter for the holidays. I'm lucky that I have my kids with me. I never had this kind of problem with Kiana's dad. He didn't pay child support but I still let him take her for the weekends. It's never the child's fault and I find it wrong when parents hold their children hostage. She still calls him dad when she talks to him on the phone. I would never teach her to call him a sperm donor or call him by his first name. Last I checked that is actually verbal child abuse. But hey, some people don't know their judicial system. I don't know ladies, what do you think? Am I wrong for being upset about it or is she wrong for holding his child from him? Janaya, I know you would have alot to say about that!! Same with you Bobi and Stef. You should comment on here or just text me your opinion. What ever works for you girls. Have to bounce! Later!!