Wow, It's on Thursday!!

So it's only Thursday, and we go back to school on Tuesday. Thank God! I am so ready to go back and have 4 hours to just hang out with my friends ( and class of coarse ). Been a long week and I'm going crazy just sitting here at home, even if I have tons of things to do. Going to have a few friends over for New Years, just relaxing and have a bottle of Champagne. It'll be fun. Can't wait to have a good night with John and some friends. Stef of coarse and maybe Chet. We'll see if he can get off work early enough to make the drive from Vernal up here. My mom wants the kids for New Years, still wondering if I want them to be here with me or I want it just for John and me. Had a good night last night. No need to go into detail, I think you know what I mean. Woke up early this morning to make breakfast for everyone. John was still pretty tired from his sleeping medication so I took him breakfast in bed. It was surprising for him to wake up to breakfast on his nightstand.  I love being able to surprise him and make him happy. He does so much for me. He got me a coffee maker for Christmas, I had been eyeing one for a few months that I wanted. Now he sets the timer and has the coffee brewed and ready for me by the time I get out of bed. He is so good to me, helps me threw everything, especially when I need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to vent my frustrations on. He is good at that, just being there to listen to me. He never makes me feel dumb or like my feeling aren't valid. He tells me when I need to do something different or if I should keep being persistent. Funny how we had both felt like there wasn't anything called love, let alone true love. But now that we found each other we know there is true love, destiny, and fate. Our past marriages failed because they were supposed to fail, we stayed married as long as we did because that was our destiny. We were meant to meet when we did where we did for a reason. The stars knew we were meant to be together and the universe made it happen. He is an amazing father and husband. He finds my art amazing, as well as a few art galleries that have passed threw my drawings. My sense of fashion, I do know how to dress and do my hair and make up. He loves when I get ready and put on my tight jeans with a low cut shirt, 8 inch heels and make myself look pretty. After almost 5 months of marriage he still gets hot and bothered when I dress up for him, or kiss him on the neck, spank his butt, or just shake my stuff in front of him. No need to dress up in just a bra and panties and lay in bed to make him hot!! ( sorry if you think this is TMI but this is like my online journal ). It's funny how the girls at school are jealous when he treats me like a princess, the faculty see us as the IT couple, and the guys always ask him how someone like him got someone like me. They find it sweet when I take him dinner, or just go in to give him a kiss because I missed him. His instructor James is funny though. He see's me coming in the room, stops the lesson, and just starts talking to me, asking how I'm doing and why I'm in the class this time!! He'll come in to my class with Grant we will just start dirty conversations.. Sex life, dirty jokes, tips for the other girls to try with their guys. Plus it's funny to see this big girl who has a crush on John since the first day of school, look at us when we are together. She gets all sad. I feel bad, but honestly she put her sights way too high!! Like come on he was already with a loser once, like he wants to back track in his life. Come on, compare me to his ex's? Really? Really? So much better, honestly. I'm not a cocky bitch but I feel the need to just put that out there. He did an amazing job picking me as wife. It's like he won the Super Bowl, or even the Olympics. So anyway, enough of me going on about how amazing my life is with my husband. Things to remember from this blog...

1. Not being in school sucks
2. New Years is coming up
3. Christmas was amazing
4. John and I are so happy
5. Nooky is wonderful in this relationship
6. We are the IT couple in school
7. I find some people super funny
8. And John made an awesome decision when he picked me to be his wife
9. I made the greatest decision of my life when I said "yes"
10. Looking forward to another great year
11. And super exited for the next 20, 30, 40 or 50 more years
12. Ha, can't get this bitch's!! 

Need to Vent!!

So J and I had a little issue today. With both the girls being sick right now, I as a woman and mother decided to call my mother and ask her for some advise on what to give the girls. He got upset and compared me to his ex-wife. That she always called her mom for every little and and her moms advise was always shit. I am so not his ex... Hello, it's like comparing a Hyundai to a Mercedes. Not even a close comparison. Ergh!! It makes me so mad, he was lucky he was on the other side of the room or I would have knocked him out.. Oh well. Kiana is almost done with her bath, need to get her ready for bed. Talk later when I am more calmed!

Ugh!

Not feeling good today, or yesterday as a matter of fact. So I don't get to go to the Area 51 Nightmare Before Christmas Christmas party. I'm very upset about it... I was so looking forward to it. I still have 2 weeks before I go back to school.. I thought I would have at least some fun. But it's o.k. I'll get to play with the kids and spend more time with John. Stef might come over. I sure hope so.. At least then we can all still spend time together. I'm going to go do something productive. Later!

Christmas Vacation!

So my Christmas vacation has started. Last day of school was last night, all we had a a big potluck. Took some pictures, just good times in Provo High ( College ). It seriously feels like high school again. Feel like I'm getting a cold, but I have to try to make time to head to Fedex. I have to mail Audree's present. John isn't supposed to know where she lives or have her address so Connie has to go with me to put on the mailing info. Hmm. I've know some crazy ass moms in my day but when you refuse to let your child's father see her or let alone give her a Christmas gift your delusions and imagination run too wild. Honestly, what is he going to do, take her? And go where? To his moms? Really? I don't know I'm ranting and raving. I just feel for him that he can't see his daughter for the holidays. I'm lucky that I have my kids with me. I never had this kind of problem with Kiana's dad. He didn't pay child support but I still let him take her for the weekends. It's never the child's fault and I find it wrong when parents hold their children hostage. She still calls him dad when she talks to him on the phone. I would never teach her to call him a sperm donor or call him by his first name. Last I checked that is actually verbal child abuse. But hey, some people don't know their judicial system. I don't know ladies, what do you think? Am I wrong for being upset about it or is she wrong for holding his child from him? Janaya, I know you would have alot to say about that!! Same with you Bobi and Stef. You should comment on here or just text me your opinion. What ever works for you girls. Have to bounce! Later!!

Last Term!!

Received my grades for last term, straight A's. Plus a GPA average of 3.8! That is amazing, that means I'm graduating with high honors! Woot, Woot! Only have 2 classes this term and 1 direct study. My classes are super easy right now and I only have 5 weeks to go! I'll be done with the school portion by January 23 and be getting ready for my internship by my birthday... John still has a while in school but he doesn't have to worry about having to quit to get a job. I'm going to work until he graduates. It's funny how our first marriages were so hard and were expectant of too much for little effort. I know I have an amazing relationship this time around as well as he does. We are so close and thrive on supporting the other in any decision they choose. I am truly blessed. I can't imagine how things would be if he wasn't here pushing me to make my goals a reality. He is the rock I stand on for support, the gravity that gives me support and the sun that warms my heart. The kids are doing amazing with him and he is a wonderful father. I love how he knows me so well. We have been talking about perfect timing to add to our family, and we are thinking the 6 months I take off school after I get my Associates would be a perfect time. The girls wouldn't be too far apart and that would give me time to rest and make sure that the pregnancy goes well. I am so excited that we are on the same page about having another child. Kiana is getting older and Kabrie is growing so fast, I feel like I have some empty part inside me. I hope another baby does the trick, or I guess we will have to keep having kids! ROFL! Christmas is coming up and we have decided to give the girls their first pests this year. Guinea Pigs! I know they will love them. Not sure what to get John just yet... My friend Taylor suggested some kind of cup thing that has dragons around it and you place a colored glass ball in the middle and a light at the bottom.. Not sure what to think of that. I thought those kind of things were for weirdos? I don't know, maybe just a date night the 2 of us. No friends or kids or siblings, of coarse the last one is all me, my sisters and brother like to hang out from time to time. I don't know. But planning a fun night out to AREA 51 with some friends. I think I'll give it another shot. Plus it's Nightmare before Christmas themed, how can I turn that down? It's a classic. Anyway going to snuggle up to my Pooh Bear!! And yes, I am his honey pot!!

 

It's finally Friday!!

So I've been out of school sense Tuesday and we have just been home with the kids. It kind of sucks, I like going to school. What am I going to do after I graduate? I hope working is a good substitute... Got my grades from last term, straight A's!!! So excited that I have my second term of straight A's. I have a 3.78 or higher. SWEET!! John isn't feeling too well right now, it just started up last night. Same with Connie. The kids are healthy and doing well just mommy and daddy and grandma aren't feeling that awsome. Hoping my mom is willing to take the kids for the weekend so they don't get sick.. Well the girls are getting cranky, time to spend time with the Angels! 

Blah!!

Feeling sick to my stomach right now, have a bad sore throat. But not letting it get to me, still getting things done. John finished the mashed potatoes, (he has that certain touch) have the stuffed chicken breasts in the oven, and going to start the veggie rice. Still have class today, then Monday and Tuesday and the term is over!! I will only have 3 more classes and i'll be done!! Can't wait to start working and making money! Well have to finish laundry and get some homework done before tonight's class!! Pease's!!

Never Again!!

So went out to Area 51 last night, which happened to be Fetish Ball. Can I just say I will never again go to that kind of place, again. I guess that used to be John and his ex wife's kind of thing. And like I pointed out to him while I was there, I'm not a weirdo like that. I'm kind of normal. Seriously girls in panties and bra's, people dancing like they were summoning the devil, not one song that I could dance too... Tried to get into it but I'm not abnormal like some people, I actually like music that doesn't make you want to slit your wrists and jump off a bridge. I think I am rubbing my normal off on him, he didn't really feel too comfortable there either. I think he is going to be ok.. lol. Either way I love my baby but if he wants to go to a place like that he can go on his own or with our friends but he can leave me home. Next time we go out I pick the dance club and it's going to be hip hop music, not Gothic suicide music. I understand that everyone has their own thing but... The fetish theme was dominatrix, hello!! Scary shit! Really, I don't need that kind of thing to get me going... But so that was the highlight of my weekend. I'll update again soon. Pimp Out!!

OMG, Thanksgiving it tomorrow!!!

Like OMG, I can't believe Thanksgiving it tomorrow! Have Tim, Stefany, and Dan coming over with the family. Going to be my first Thanksgiving with John and his parents. This time of year really makes me thankful for everything I have. I notice I am super thankful for Mike and Connie. They have been so supportive with my schooling. Connie has been super with the girls. Kabrie was barely sitting when she got to her, and now she crawls, is ready to stand on her own and is gaining a lot of weight. Kiana was still wetting her pants and Connie got her to stop wetting her pants during the day and at night. Mike is great, he will play with Kiana and watch cartoons with her all day. They get along so well, and I think that is what she has needed. One thing I am really great full for is the fact that my kids haven't been like my friends kids, they have slept all night sense they were born unless they were sick. I know Bobi and Janaya get super ticked when I talk about it but I can't help that my kids have been good girls. lol. John and I are so excited for our first big holiday together. Well girls are ready to play some more, have to go... *Be thankful for everything you have, for the people in your life, the mistakes that you have made. The stains on your cloths, the curl in your hair and the fact that you've lived this long. Who knows we might be gone tomorrow or we could live forever.*

Wow...

Can I just start off that I really hate the snow? Well guess what, I don't care. I'm saying it anyway. It's a love hate relationship between snow and I. Woke up this morning with more on the ground than I remember before bed. For those of you who didn't know, or probably don't care, yesterday was John and my 3 month anniversary. We made it longer than Kim Kardashian!!! Anyway, it's funny to see how different our marriage is from our previous ones. We don't fight, we haven't tried to kick each other out, or threatened divorce. I really think this time will last 10 times longer than our last. I can see us celebrating our 50th anniversary. Granted I'll be 70 and he'll be 81 but old people love is so cute! The kids are getting so big, I need to take some winter pics now that it's snowed all over the place... Kiana loves the snow, Kabrie hasn't seen snow so this well be her first time. I wonder if I should let her crawl over to the edge of the cement and grass and let her white wash herself? Na, that's too mean. I'll just let her touch it for a sec. Still cleaning up from the get together last night. Have to get back to that. Late's..  Love, Peace and Chicken Grease!!!

My Kind Of Memories

             Totally me, country girl threw and threw! Boots, button up shirt, jeans and my hat..

Crossing My Fingers

So J had a job interview today, it went great... It's going to the company's CEO for review. That it is a great sign. Have an interview at the law firm tomorrow. Really hope that everything turns out and we both get these jobs. The money would be amazing!! Had a good day with the girls while John and Connie ( my amazing mother-in-law ) were out. Got to play with Kabrie who is now crawling everywhere and is climbing on furniture... Yikes' means she is going to start crawling soon!!! Kiana and I got to watch Little Einsteins together. We played along and had a good time. John made lunch, felt sick so I didn't eat but it looked good. Not to mention the chef! He looks so good in his Dickie's, button up shirt and tie!! Can we just say that he looks so sexy when he dresses that way! Well even when he dresses in jeans and a T-shirt he is super hot.. Got ready for school, classic hippie jeans with my AE long sleeve shirt, Soda shoes, and school girl pig tails. I love getting all sexy for John. He always makes me feel loved, definitely can't keep his hands down.. lol ladies you know how it is! Got to see Danny Boy, which was nice. It has been over a month, glad to see him like this. Had a blast hanging out with Stefany and Yaz durring Melissa's class. We talk about the most random things. ( It even gets a little dirty sometimes! ) Grant's class was fun, we talked about labor and all that great stuff. Then went into the lounge area and chilled out with J and the gang while we waited for Hailey. Fabio is a hoot, and Chris is just Chris. This chicks little brother was there and I thought he was like 8 when he is 17. Felt bad after that, he was pretty upset that I called him a kid. No we're home and relaxing with my wonderful husband. Can't wait for bed time, that means snuggle time!! Peace and Bessings!

Awsome!!

So I'm finally going to take everyone's advise and take Kabrie in for a modeling shoot to see if she really is cute enough to do it.. Everyone thinks she might be the next Gerber baby! lol

 Kind of hard to think of you child as a model!! But I still hope she gets it. That way she can pay for her own college fund! Yes, less money put into a college fund. 

With 2 other kids now and wanting to add another to the equation means a lot of money for college. Not like J and I won't be making enough money by the time we graduate. It would be nice, she would get to travel and have adds as pictures for her baby book.. I can't say that about my baby book!!! So glad I have beautiful children

Super Sunday

Woke up this morning and John made me some good rolls and gravy with a cup of hot coffee. It was a really nice morning. He was sweet enough to wait an hour and a half while I finished getting ready. I took that picture so he has one that he could look at when I wake up. That way he remembers that beauty takes time and if he rushes me it won't look this good!! He knows I love him! lol, love you booboo! 

Thought that I would try the 70's Charlie's Angels look.. I think it turned out really well. Although John thinks I'm trying to make fun of Kim Kardashian.. I kind of see it but I sure didn't say "Oopsy's I got divorced" when I took it. Who doesn't love SNL? They made it super freaking funny!!

Ya, this one the bangs are totally covering up my smokey eye makeup. Kind of ticked but I think it looks pretty good too.. You should let me know which one you like best. You can always comment and let me know!! If I pushed up my boobs some more do you think that they would look like Dolly Parton's? lol so totally kidding. I love her music!

Amazing Saturday Night!!

Have Matsa over for the weekend, which is nice to have my little sister over. J made the best potato soup again, although I was a little lazy and I didn't make home made rolls. Thank goodness for Walmart!! The girls are with my mom for the night, amazing that I get a night to just chill out with John. I love the nights when it's quiet and we just get to watch comedy central and laugh our butts off!! Watched Daniel Tosh's new stand up while I did scrap booking for Audree's baby book... It needs a few modifications, a tweak here and there but it's nothing I can't fix. lol. If you don't know Audree is John's daughter. She is 8, a good age in my mind. I've only met her once but she seems like a sweet heart. Kind of weird though, I'm only 20 and I have a step daughter that is 12 years younger than me. I'll get used to it. She is old enough to do make overs and teach her about fashion and hair. Plus who doesn't love to do mani pedi's? I really think that we will get along just great. John is excited to have her over when we can get her for a weekend. Kiana knows about her and has seen pictures and love the idea of someone older to play with her. Kabrie is still young to know whats up but in due time she will know that there is a step sister in the picture. Which means I will have to do new family photo's. I can't just not add her in. Strange when I look at the family pictures we have now I can tell we have someone missing without even thinking about it. Our family is almost perfect, we have Daddy (John) Mommy (Me) Audree, Kiana, and Kabrie.. I hope in the next five years we can have the son we both have wanted. Still trying to figure out what kind of name we would give a boy. I love the idea of keeping his fathers name going, he kind of likes it! I think with time he will love it. But it's still really earlly, I still have a while in school before I am ready to have a child. For those of you who don't know I am going into Medical Assisting right now but I want to eventually get higher. Maybe my RN and if I get that far why not do another 3 years and become a nurse practitioner right? Worth it in my eyes. Almost a DR just not.. I don't know, I am rambling. I had an ice coffee and am super wired.. Need to try and get some sleep... Time to snuggle up to my honey pot and rest for the night. Love peace and chicken grease!

Great Night!!!

I had the best night with my husband... Went to school, only had one class so we were out of there by 7. After we hoped in the car and drove to Applebees. It was amazing. We just sat there and talked about all the stupid things only we can say to each other, talked about our future, maybe an addition to the family within the next 5 years. I can honestly say no matter how long our day is or how stressful we still love to be with each other. We have both admitted we can't be away from one another for more than an hour. Funny, most days at school he either goes and finds me every hour or I go find him. I never thought I would be so attached to someone like this. I've never had a partner that I love to be around or hate to be away from. I realized tonight that what J and I have isn't just a bit of luck but he really is my soul mate. All our past relationships, marriages, and just utter disappointments where all for a cause. Rascal Flatts must have been singing about J and I in the song Bless the Broken Road. He is my everything, my sun in the morning, the moon in my nights. The first sip of hot coffee when it's hard to wake up. I can't imagine my life without him

School Days

Here at school with my besties Stefany, Tanja, Melissa, Jaz and Cody... Having an awsome time talking about how stupid some people are and baby daddy drama crap.. lol... Totally love my friends from school

What a day....

Is it fair to say that this day isn't what I was hoping it would be when I woke up at 3 A.M this morning?  I never expect to have a crappy day, they just seem to appear out of nowhere.  Feel pretty sick, Dr. says its normal after the surgery, that it should go away eventually.  For those who don't know I had my gallbladder removed last month... ( totally sucked having the stitches and being on pain meds just to walk around ) Just hope I can go back to normal soon.  Totally haven't added our family photos on here but doing that right now.. Halloween was pretty good, not very many trick or treaters here.. Used to lots of kids and still getting knocks on the door at 12.. Slow but getting to watch kid Halloween movies with the family was really nice.. Although we did have a funeral the weekend before Halloween which did make it kind of sad to celebrate, hence why we cancelled our reception.. But it was nice getting to see Al again, he has always been super nice and really funny. Got to meet J's uncle Neal, didn't really talk much but he seemed super nice. Meeting Kirk and Serina was super great... Kirk is super funny and way awsome, he's real and honest which is hard to find these days. Serina is can I say TFA!! ( for those of you who don't know young lingo, lol, Totally Freaking Amazing!! ) Too bad they had to go back to AZ.  It would be nice to have some more of his family around here.. I seem to have grown some what attached to his family.. I think that is a good thing, I don't know if he thinks it is... lol.. Enough for now, need to check on little miss Kabrie from her nap time... Lates

What is the world coming to?

I never thought I would ever see what I'm seeing now. How some people can be so selfish and put themselves ahead like the world revolves around them and then makes life miserable for those who don't comply to their demands. It's sad really... It just reminds me of why I don't put up with crap. But all will be well soon enough, the tide will calm and the sun will shine threw. I just hope all of these sleepless nights for everyone pays off sooner than later..

  God,
       If you could send me a miracle for all of this, I would surely appreciate it. But if you decide that this is something we need to go thew in order to be better people let your will be done... Just a P.S, I would really love a little help. Your loving child
                       Esmeralda Rasmussen

A Real Saturday Morning...

Woke up this morning and realized that this is my first real Saturday I've had in a long time.. From being sick to moving around and getting kids adjusted or having friends over. I have the urge to bake, go out, and actually do my Ti-Bow for once. Wow, my first real weekend with my husband.. I haven't felt this complete in years, it's amazing to see how one person can make me so happy. It's surreal. Hope everyday is this good from now on...

It starts today!

My fantastic new mother in law, Connie, has helped me start a blog.  Yeah!!

So you can be the first to follow and keep up with our new life together.

We will be sharing the good days and the bad days and the ones in between...

Game On!!!